Quarter life crisis??

I wake up in the morning, hoping it is not a morning. I hate my office. I hate my work. I hate the cubicle. I hate talking to friends. I go to office hoping that the day gets over soon. Ppl ask me “what happened?”, I hate even answering that question. I hate walks after lunch, and the talks over the lunch. Small teases become irritating. Its weird, suddenly silence has become so comforting. I am comfortable with computer all the time rather than human beings. Daily talks with my parents does not help me either, rather it drives me crazy. Even my favourite pastime Table Tennis is irksome. I hate crowd, I like to be alone. Future looks frightening. A strange feeling that life is going out of control,  a feeling that somebody else is controlling my life. Even prayers dont help. Night full of nightmares. Oh, Is there a escape? Is this what they call as Quarter life crisis?

Its true that being in twenties is something, weird, full of uncertainties.

 Have you ever felt this way??


5 Responses to Quarter life crisis??

  1. Navaneeth says:

    Hey Ambi,
    This is what i got on net about the crisis. Frankly speaking though i did not know the term i felt the article is worth a glance. I felt nice that even others feel the same and am not alone 🙂
    It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

    You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

    You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

    You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.

    You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

    You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

    One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

    You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

    What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

  2. Sandhya says:

    Everybody is sailing in the same boat ambi!!!!
    Don worry…no moment is permanent…it is jus a dark phase of life…after all,, u will get to know the importance of brightness only when u are in dark…

  3. Bug says:

    yup.. sandy is right..

    just hang on you will pass through it..

  4. Thejas VR says:

    First of all, considering the current urban life expectancy, you can safely call this the half-life crisis. 🙂
    And yes, I ve faced this. I guess all of us will face it once in our lives. The best way to get over this, as I ve discovered, is to do things that you have never done before. I ve gone to movies and bookstores all alone and also did a TN trip all alone.. May be you can think of other things to keep yourself occupied like learning music or French or something. I am not sure if they work out for everyone, but these have surely helped me.

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